I got a new team at work this week and whenever that happens, it’s like the first day of school all over again. Associates are concerned about the transition. I am concerned about the transition, the foot I am getting off on, the impression I am making, the expectations I am setting. Yet at the same time, it’s very freeing.
We also got rid of quite a bit of stuff over the weekend during a garage sale and a donation drive by after said garage sale. So many things we were just hanging onto for the sake of hanging onto – we’d probably never use them again and I’m not sure they’re worth keeping to figure that out. That was also freeing.
I spent a whooping 45 minutes in the gym for the first time in many, many months. I ran two miles and biked some and shockingly, it felt good to get out there and get moving. I forgot how much I enjoy running, even just on the treadmill. The trick is keeping it going, but I feel as though I am at a strange point in my life where I actually WANT to keep it going. Not for the sake of a chore to be fit, but just because it represents a few moments to myself where I feel really mentally clear and like I can actually do it. That is freeing.
I didn’t realize how many of these things just happened to stagger upon each other, but it’s refreshing. I am coming off a weekend of being mostly by myself (Ryan and Elle were both out of town) and although I did almost nothing notable, I feel recharged and ready to take on the world – or at least a small portion of it. I binge watched some stuff. I cleaned some stuff. I got rid of some stuff. I let go of some stuff. All things I might be able to accomplish around people, but am better suited to handle alone.
So many new, yet not so new, things.
I often wonder how many new beginnings someone actually needs. Like how many times do you actually have to start over? You really shouldn’t, right? Yet we find so much solace in closing chapters of our books and moving onto something else. Beginnings happen all the time, all over, to everyone. Some things close because we want them to, others are forced closed and we’re left wondering why. Yet even when they’re things we don’t want to happen, there’s still something to be said for getting to start over.
With my work teams especially, I get an opportunity to learn from my mistakes. I can take a minute, reflect on what I’ve done right or wrong with my last team and decide what I want to carry over. It’s not a completely fresh start. People gossip. They talk amongst each other about what type of boss you are, but at the very least, you get a chance to prove them right or wrong – depending on your preference. Things that were challenges before may not be again simply because you head them off, expecting them to come up. It’s always calm in the beginning because people are shy. Then you start seeing true colors and you can adapt accordingly. There’s just so much that goes into it.
At any rate, it’s refreshing. I feel refreshed. My people feel refreshed and I am going to try and make it a point to take good care of myself during this cycle in hopes that I can find things that I don’t have to start over ever again. But, if we’re being honest – going to the gym sounds terrible. 😉